What a year it has been, what a year it will be!

Alright guys, for real I need to start writing on here more regularly. I really have placed it aside and I regret that very much. I apologize to those of you that are shy to write a comment and that have read my posts. I really didn't mean to take this much time off at ALL! A lot has happened since last april, so I will update you quickly.

Since the passing of my family member, I did relapse for some period of time, I had to go to a psychiatrist, and was very open this time about what I was feeling, why I wanted to get better and why I was willing to work WITH him as opposed to AGAINST him, since I knew it was in my best interest.

I finally started my placement from my social work degree last september, and am working at a rehabilitation centre for youth with addictions to substances. It has been a fantastic experience and has definitely changed my views on those people that have had to suffer addictions due to different circumstances. I have learned so much from those youth, and as I have told them personally, they are some of the strongest people I know.

Recently, I have been rediagnosed with cyclothymia (which is very similar to Bipolar II if some of you know that). And sadly to say, symptoms of my eating disorder have resurfaced, but again as with my relapse last year, I am soo determined to ask for help when I need it. I have the skills and willingness to work through this battle and I now that each one of you going through your own battles deserve to learn these skills as well. Asking for help is not WRONG. There is no shame in asking for help when you need it.

It is OKAY to not be okay, to feel whatever you are feeling. If you are having a good day, EMBRACE IT, if you are not, talk to someone about it. Someone that will understand or at least potentially be able to understand. If that person is not someone you can talk to face to face, try phoning them. If that is not possible either, seek out "strangers" that care. I am one of those "strangers". I do not expect you at all to feel fantastic after talking, but I do promise I won't leave.

Remember that everyone deserves to be loved even if that love can only be felt through a screen.

Xoxo,

Girl :)

The power of a word

Hello there everyone!

You know when someone says the right word at the perfect time and that person makes your day? Well, what about those times when that person says something that maybe is not the right thing to say at the time? How long do we think about it? Is it just a day too? Or does it go on for longer?

Why is it that we always focus on the bad things most of time....and it takes a lot more effort to be recognized for something good we have accomplished. For example, why do teachers call parents when their son or daughter is doing bad in school but not when they have excellent marks?

I was just thinking....can we not tell everyone we talk to one good thing about them and why we appreciate them? Does it take that much effort? So much effort, yet we are very skilled in criticizing others....

How many times do we ACTUALLY know we have said the wrong thing, and we try and try to apologize yet the person doesnt accept it? What if you are one of those people? Why cant you say its ok, I forgive you? Why is it that it takes so much to accept someone with their faults too?

I just wrote many many questions, and I am sorry if you are not the "thinking" type. I just had not done it before, so I just wanted to see how it would go. I believe that all of us are beautiful and will be able to accomplish great things, and that all we need at times is a little push.

Every one of you is so valuable....and if it werent for you, I could not be writing this, so thank you.

As I have mentioned, my email is tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com
Dont hesitate to email me!!

I love you all soo much!


Girl

p.s: I almost forgot the song for this post, it is Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne

So thankful!

Wow you guys. I am so honored to have views from Morocco and Denmark. Honestly, I feel so privileged to be able to help! Even in the tiniest bit! Thank you <3

I would like to dedicate this post to Rachel and Allison (whom I hope see this) for being super strong yesterday! Honestly girls, I am sooo proud of you!! <3

As I mentioned in my last post I was going to share more songs that made me feel better. This set of songs relates to basically recognizing that you will be loved. When you are depressed you feel like you dont deserve any love or that nobody could ever love you for who you are. But I realized I was wrong, and you should too! So here they go:

1. She will be loved - Maroon 5
Obviously well known. I dont know why, but the acoustic version is just soo much better for my tastes, and it gives it more feeling! I love the line "Look for the girl with the broken smile, ask her if she wants to stay a while".

2. Talking to the Moon - Bruno Mars
This song is kind of me pretending there is that guy out there singing this to me. And honestly, listen to it enough times and you start to believe it! You have to love Bruno Mars! This songs makes me realize how guys can secretely hope for someone too, and it can be YOU!


3. Somewhere Out There - Our Lady Peace
This song is special to me too. There was this guy who I liked and we were at a party and they started playing this song and he started singing it. At the time I didnt know the song, so I had to go look it up. And then everytime I listen to this song its like (again) thinking that there are guys that are hoping to be loved too! But at the end, you know that the person you are going to be with it "somewhere out there". It's hopeful! I love it! And it reminds me of him everytime I hear it :P

4. Someday You Will Be Loved- Death Cab for a Cutie
AMAZING SONG! I actually just found it towards the end of my depression. But I love it and definetely give it a listen if you havent already. Because you  will know that "you will be loved, you will be loved like you never have known". So amazing! Honestly, this is the song to go to at the worst of your times! It will boost your self-esteem :)

5. Who I am - Nick Jonas & The Administration
This song is just a great self-esteem booster too! Many people know him for the Jonas Brothers group. But honestly this is totally different. This is himself. Its more raw. And totally not disney (in my opinion anyways). It talks about how asking for love is not a bad thing. Because we are all unique and we should be loved for "who we are".

So those are more songs that helped me personally. There are obviously still more, but I'm thinking everytime I post something new, I will reccomend a song too :) Like at the very end. I know most of you are sending me emails to contact me, but don't be shy in posting comments, you can even talk to each other! I know you would all love it! Even if you just say hi :)

You guys are so awesome and beautiful. Each one of you :) <3

Take care and dont forget to smile!

Lots of love,

Girl

PS: I will from now on ALWAYS post my email at the end of each post because if for some reason someone just sees that ONE post, they will know how to contact me :) Again, dont be afraid to, unless you have something mean to say in which case keep it to yourself! Its tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com