What a year it has been, what a year it will be!

Alright guys, for real I need to start writing on here more regularly. I really have placed it aside and I regret that very much. I apologize to those of you that are shy to write a comment and that have read my posts. I really didn't mean to take this much time off at ALL! A lot has happened since last april, so I will update you quickly.

Since the passing of my family member, I did relapse for some period of time, I had to go to a psychiatrist, and was very open this time about what I was feeling, why I wanted to get better and why I was willing to work WITH him as opposed to AGAINST him, since I knew it was in my best interest.

I finally started my placement from my social work degree last september, and am working at a rehabilitation centre for youth with addictions to substances. It has been a fantastic experience and has definitely changed my views on those people that have had to suffer addictions due to different circumstances. I have learned so much from those youth, and as I have told them personally, they are some of the strongest people I know.

Recently, I have been rediagnosed with cyclothymia (which is very similar to Bipolar II if some of you know that). And sadly to say, symptoms of my eating disorder have resurfaced, but again as with my relapse last year, I am soo determined to ask for help when I need it. I have the skills and willingness to work through this battle and I now that each one of you going through your own battles deserve to learn these skills as well. Asking for help is not WRONG. There is no shame in asking for help when you need it.

It is OKAY to not be okay, to feel whatever you are feeling. If you are having a good day, EMBRACE IT, if you are not, talk to someone about it. Someone that will understand or at least potentially be able to understand. If that person is not someone you can talk to face to face, try phoning them. If that is not possible either, seek out "strangers" that care. I am one of those "strangers". I do not expect you at all to feel fantastic after talking, but I do promise I won't leave.

Remember that everyone deserves to be loved even if that love can only be felt through a screen.

Xoxo,

Girl :)

What is YOUR opinion?

I wanted to start by thanking those of you who know I am sick, and have sent me wishes to get better. I slowly am getting better, but it's no fun to be sick. But thank you for your wishes! As well, I just checked my stats for the blog and there's readers from France and Netherlands!!! wow, thank you guys!

There is something I kind of wanted to talk about (and my next post will be the story about the girl who was there for me, someone asked for it, so I shall write about it).

I know that in many places (where I live included) the government is starting to realize the impact of mental health in teenagers (took them a while and a couple teenage suicides). Anyways, they are saying how awareness is the most important way to spend their money so society knows it is a big issue that needs to be addressed. I was just wondering what you guys think? Is it the best idea to put all that money into pure awareness?

Here's my opinion: I think that yes awareness is important, but not as important as helping those who are personally affected by it. To me, it's just kind of putting a bandaid on a bigger problem. The money should be invested in programs designed to actually help those teenagers, instead of just acknowledging the fact that they need help. For many, it is scary to ask for help (whereas it be your best friend, your parents, teacher, counsellor, etc). Many of us did not trust those people who wanted to "help". And the fact that it is so expensive didnt help either. More than acknowledging the problem, the money should help to potentially solve it. What do you guys think? I welcome all opinions! What would help YOU personally if the government were to spend money on this?


This post is dedicated to all of those who have taken the first step in getting better, and letting someone know. I am proud of you!! <3

The song for this post is By your side - Tokio Hotel. Very good song!


I care about you guys!


Girl

p.s: please leave a message with your opinion! :)