Wow you guys. I am so honored to have views from Morocco and Denmark. Honestly, I feel so privileged to be able to help! Even in the tiniest bit! Thank you <3
I would like to dedicate this post to Rachel and Allison (whom I hope see this) for being super strong yesterday! Honestly girls, I am sooo proud of you!! <3
As I mentioned in my last post I was going to share more songs that made me feel better. This set of songs relates to basically recognizing that you will be loved. When you are depressed you feel like you dont deserve any love or that nobody could ever love you for who you are. But I realized I was wrong, and you should too! So here they go:
1. She will be loved - Maroon 5
Obviously well known. I dont know why, but the acoustic version is just soo much better for my tastes, and it gives it more feeling! I love the line "Look for the girl with the broken smile, ask her if she wants to stay a while".
2. Talking to the Moon - Bruno Mars
This song is kind of me pretending there is that guy out there singing this to me. And honestly, listen to it enough times and you start to believe it! You have to love Bruno Mars! This songs makes me realize how guys can secretely hope for someone too, and it can be YOU!
3. Somewhere Out There - Our Lady Peace
This song is special to me too. There was this guy who I liked and we were at a party and they started playing this song and he started singing it. At the time I didnt know the song, so I had to go look it up. And then everytime I listen to this song its like (again) thinking that there are guys that are hoping to be loved too! But at the end, you know that the person you are going to be with it "somewhere out there". It's hopeful! I love it! And it reminds me of him everytime I hear it :P
4. Someday You Will Be Loved- Death Cab for a Cutie
AMAZING SONG! I actually just found it towards the end of my depression. But I love it and definetely give it a listen if you havent already. Because you will know that "you will be loved, you will be loved like you never have known". So amazing! Honestly, this is the song to go to at the worst of your times! It will boost your self-esteem :)
5. Who I am - Nick Jonas & The Administration
This song is just a great self-esteem booster too! Many people know him for the Jonas Brothers group. But honestly this is totally different. This is himself. Its more raw. And totally not disney (in my opinion anyways). It talks about how asking for love is not a bad thing. Because we are all unique and we should be loved for "who we are".
So those are more songs that helped me personally. There are obviously still more, but I'm thinking everytime I post something new, I will reccomend a song too :) Like at the very end. I know most of you are sending me emails to contact me, but don't be shy in posting comments, you can even talk to each other! I know you would all love it! Even if you just say hi :)
You guys are so awesome and beautiful. Each one of you :) <3
Take care and dont forget to smile!
Lots of love,
Girl
PS: I will from now on ALWAYS post my email at the end of each post because if for some reason someone just sees that ONE post, they will know how to contact me :) Again, dont be afraid to, unless you have something mean to say in which case keep it to yourself! Its tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com
Monday, February 28, 2011
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Songs that helped me :)
Hi guys!
Thank you so much for reading this. Honestly...Everyday I check the stats and it's growing :) Today there were most from the States and from the UK, and i'm not even from those places!
So, as promised I said I was going to share songs that helped me through some of my most difficult times. I am a girl, so keep in mind that. Although, for most of them that doesnt matter. I will post the song, and a brief little thought on them. If i see that I have too many (because this was a long period of depression for me) I will make a part 2 of this post :)
1. Life is beautiful - Vega4
Honestly, this is an AMAZING song that will lift your spirits up instantly! I love it sooooo much! I first saw it on MTV's "If you really knew me" shows. And they played this for the credits, and I was searching for this song for a couple of days until I found it! It just really makes me smile no matter what! And i HIGHLY recommend you go listen to it right now! :)
2. Imagine - John Lennon
Obviously this one there is no much explaining. It is just a purely uplifting song. John's voice is just what you need to hear when you are having that terrible day. This one is my absolute favourite song if I just had to pick one. By far.
3. Beside You - Marianas Trench
Ok, this song is very special to me. I was very close to my lowest point during these four years and one of the only people I would ever talk to was having a really tough problem. And I dedicated this song to her. She was 8 hours away. And she thanked me from the bottom of her heart and returned the meaning of the song to me. It reminds me of those times. And it makes me a little nostalgic, but nonetheless happy :)
4. Somewhere Over the Rainbow/ What a wonderful World - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole
This song I really dont remember when I first heard it. But I loved it from the beginning. And at the time I was just learning how to play the guitar. And it just combined two things that I love, hope&happiness and singing&guitar. It makes me hopeful of the future. Puts a smile on my face!
5. Brand New Day - Joshua Radin
Ok, so I heard this song first at the very end of an old episode of House (the show). I love HOUSE. It was a very emotional episode and it showed how sometimes after a whole tragic period in your life, you can actually put it away, and start a a "brand new day". Because you know you will be ok. It is honestly a beautiful song! If you like acoustic things, you will absolutely love this! I cannot stress enough that you have to go listen to it!
BONUS SONGS:
Ok, so those probably are at the top of my list. And as i mentioned before, yes there are a ton more! I just want to spread them out throughout posts.
But this little part is special. These songs I dedicate to each and every one of you out there who may be reading this. I really express myself better through dedicating songs sometimes....Enjoy <3
Let me take you there - Plain White T's
Just dont read this and do listen to it. I dedicate this to you personally.
Count on Me - Bruno Mars
Same thing. PLEASE GO LISTEN TO IT. It explains how I feel about you. Each. And. Every. One. Of. You. <3
Please after listening to the songs (all, some or none) and you want to contact me, please do. At tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com
I check my email super constantly! So I will get it soon.
Know that it is never too late to get out of this and to ask for help <3
I love you peeps!
Girl
Thank you so much for reading this. Honestly...Everyday I check the stats and it's growing :) Today there were most from the States and from the UK, and i'm not even from those places!
So, as promised I said I was going to share songs that helped me through some of my most difficult times. I am a girl, so keep in mind that. Although, for most of them that doesnt matter. I will post the song, and a brief little thought on them. If i see that I have too many (because this was a long period of depression for me) I will make a part 2 of this post :)
1. Life is beautiful - Vega4
Honestly, this is an AMAZING song that will lift your spirits up instantly! I love it sooooo much! I first saw it on MTV's "If you really knew me" shows. And they played this for the credits, and I was searching for this song for a couple of days until I found it! It just really makes me smile no matter what! And i HIGHLY recommend you go listen to it right now! :)
2. Imagine - John Lennon
Obviously this one there is no much explaining. It is just a purely uplifting song. John's voice is just what you need to hear when you are having that terrible day. This one is my absolute favourite song if I just had to pick one. By far.
3. Beside You - Marianas Trench
Ok, this song is very special to me. I was very close to my lowest point during these four years and one of the only people I would ever talk to was having a really tough problem. And I dedicated this song to her. She was 8 hours away. And she thanked me from the bottom of her heart and returned the meaning of the song to me. It reminds me of those times. And it makes me a little nostalgic, but nonetheless happy :)
4. Somewhere Over the Rainbow/ What a wonderful World - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole
This song I really dont remember when I first heard it. But I loved it from the beginning. And at the time I was just learning how to play the guitar. And it just combined two things that I love, hope&happiness and singing&guitar. It makes me hopeful of the future. Puts a smile on my face!
5. Brand New Day - Joshua Radin
Ok, so I heard this song first at the very end of an old episode of House (the show). I love HOUSE. It was a very emotional episode and it showed how sometimes after a whole tragic period in your life, you can actually put it away, and start a a "brand new day". Because you know you will be ok. It is honestly a beautiful song! If you like acoustic things, you will absolutely love this! I cannot stress enough that you have to go listen to it!
BONUS SONGS:
Ok, so those probably are at the top of my list. And as i mentioned before, yes there are a ton more! I just want to spread them out throughout posts.
But this little part is special. These songs I dedicate to each and every one of you out there who may be reading this. I really express myself better through dedicating songs sometimes....Enjoy <3
Let me take you there - Plain White T's
Just dont read this and do listen to it. I dedicate this to you personally.
Count on Me - Bruno Mars
Same thing. PLEASE GO LISTEN TO IT. It explains how I feel about you. Each. And. Every. One. Of. You. <3
Please after listening to the songs (all, some or none) and you want to contact me, please do. At tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com
I check my email super constantly! So I will get it soon.
Know that it is never too late to get out of this and to ask for help <3
I love you peeps!
Girl
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Apologizing
I'm sorry everybody for not posting earlier. I have been sooo busy lately, but don't ever think that I am going to abandon this blog. Nope! Not happening!
I would like to dedicate this post to my friend Catherine (who will probably read this) and a new little friend called Jasmine (who I hope will read this). Catherine, thank you for being you! Jasmine, you are not alone, dont forget that! :)
Anywho, I hope everybody is doing good :) And if not, that's ok too, we all go through those days where we just dont want anything to do with anybody. But if you are reading this thank you! I was just checking the stats for this blog and turns out I have readers from India, Romania and Ireland!! That's crazy! Thank you! I hope you guys enjoy this and know that you are not alone! Never EVER.
It takes a lot of self-talking and a little bit of a push, but it is possible, and can certainly be done. In my next post I will be posting songs that made ME feel better in those days. It sometimes was all that helped me to keep going. I loved and still LOVE music. I identify myself with it, and can clearly recall the times when each of them helped me.
I love you guys!!
Dont forget to contact me if you need me :) or just want to talk at tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com
Take care and Smile!!
Girl
I would like to dedicate this post to my friend Catherine (who will probably read this) and a new little friend called Jasmine (who I hope will read this). Catherine, thank you for being you! Jasmine, you are not alone, dont forget that! :)
Anywho, I hope everybody is doing good :) And if not, that's ok too, we all go through those days where we just dont want anything to do with anybody. But if you are reading this thank you! I was just checking the stats for this blog and turns out I have readers from India, Romania and Ireland!! That's crazy! Thank you! I hope you guys enjoy this and know that you are not alone! Never EVER.
It takes a lot of self-talking and a little bit of a push, but it is possible, and can certainly be done. In my next post I will be posting songs that made ME feel better in those days. It sometimes was all that helped me to keep going. I loved and still LOVE music. I identify myself with it, and can clearly recall the times when each of them helped me.
I love you guys!!
Dont forget to contact me if you need me :) or just want to talk at tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com
Take care and Smile!!
Girl
Monday, February 21, 2011
When you feel like you are about to fall off the edge
There comes a point in your depression where you feel so close to edge of the cliff that you feel like there is nothing that can stop you from falling. I know. I was there. It was December 21st of 2009 for me. The lowest point of my life that I will never forget. I will be forever grateful of my dad for stopping me. I won't get into details because I dont have to. I went through that day but I survived and I can say I am now honestly happy.
It was december 20th and I just COULD NOT take it anymore. I felt worthless and alone. Like no one could help me. I dont remember ever crying as much as I did that day. For at least 12 hours straight there was always a tear on my face....I desperately needed help...yet I didnt know how to ask for it. This is why I say that asking for help is THE MOST IMPORTANT step yet THE MOST DIFFICULT since not only you are admitting to yourself that, but as well it's the first step to make. That's why its so hard!
But know that as soon as you ask for help, it can only go uphill from there. As I always say dont expect to run a marathon when you are just learning how to walk....but you eventually will be able to walk AND run by yourself. For those of you who dont really like or understand metaphors, I am saying that as soon as you ask for help you are on your way to learning how to walk again (which is trying to get back on track with your life, with the people who love you, with the things you love to do)...you will take baby steps (one smile at a time) and sometimes you may even fall (you will have your downs too), but your goal is to walk on your own (to enjoy your life to the fullest! Without worrying about what people say or think about you!).
This is A LOT to take in right now if you feel like you are at your lowest and its ok. Dont RUSH through these steps...because that is not good for your emotions either. It has to be balanced but first of all you need to WANT TO GET BETTER yourself. As soon as you say that to yourself and believe it, go, RUN, ask for help! I'll be the first one there if you want! It's the greatest feeling when someone commends you for wanting to get help. In any other situation it's kind of ridiculous...but HERE it can mean EVERYTHING to you....AND me.
Please if you are stuck...dont know what to do...who to turn to....how to explain this to mom and dad, your friend, your boyfriend, girlfriend, how to get professional help. Or you just want to talk. Contact me. I'll post my email again its tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com
I truly want to help you <3
Love you
Girl
It was december 20th and I just COULD NOT take it anymore. I felt worthless and alone. Like no one could help me. I dont remember ever crying as much as I did that day. For at least 12 hours straight there was always a tear on my face....I desperately needed help...yet I didnt know how to ask for it. This is why I say that asking for help is THE MOST IMPORTANT step yet THE MOST DIFFICULT since not only you are admitting to yourself that, but as well it's the first step to make. That's why its so hard!
But know that as soon as you ask for help, it can only go uphill from there. As I always say dont expect to run a marathon when you are just learning how to walk....but you eventually will be able to walk AND run by yourself. For those of you who dont really like or understand metaphors, I am saying that as soon as you ask for help you are on your way to learning how to walk again (which is trying to get back on track with your life, with the people who love you, with the things you love to do)...you will take baby steps (one smile at a time) and sometimes you may even fall (you will have your downs too), but your goal is to walk on your own (to enjoy your life to the fullest! Without worrying about what people say or think about you!).
This is A LOT to take in right now if you feel like you are at your lowest and its ok. Dont RUSH through these steps...because that is not good for your emotions either. It has to be balanced but first of all you need to WANT TO GET BETTER yourself. As soon as you say that to yourself and believe it, go, RUN, ask for help! I'll be the first one there if you want! It's the greatest feeling when someone commends you for wanting to get help. In any other situation it's kind of ridiculous...but HERE it can mean EVERYTHING to you....AND me.
Please if you are stuck...dont know what to do...who to turn to....how to explain this to mom and dad, your friend, your boyfriend, girlfriend, how to get professional help. Or you just want to talk. Contact me. I'll post my email again its tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com
I truly want to help you <3
Love you
Girl
Saturday, February 19, 2011
People have asked me this
So lately on Yahoo!Answers I've been busy replying to people. And trying to help them as much as I can. Many ask me how long I've had depression, and pretty much a background on the why...how I dealt with it...when I got over it, things like that. So why not share it with you?
I started having depression when I was 13 years old and it lasted for 4 years (heavily). It wasnt detected until about 2 years and a half through that. I didn't tell anyone. Not my parents and we had just moved continents (new language, new culture, new house, new school, new EVERYTHING), so I didnt have any friends or someone I could talk to. One day in October of 2009 I had to go to the doctor to check up...you know the regular. And he asked me how I was doing like regular people do, and I broke down right there in front of him, my parents, and a med student who was doing her practice there. Everyone got concerned, but I just wanted to be left alone. I got put in medication right away, and they made me go to the hospital for a full day at least one time. I was 16, but I was terrified of letting people know why I was feeling that way, because I knew my parents would eventually know. The change had been hard for everyone in my family and I didnt want them to worry any more than they had to.
As well I felt that I had no real reason to be depressed. So that made me feel worse! I had loving parents, was a good student! But I didnt have any friends...had lunch at school by myself many times...and came home crying most of my first year in this new country.
It wasnt until about early december of last year that I started feeling like this huuuge weight was being lifted off my shoulders...I starting having this weird feeling....it was.....happiness? Like WHAT is that!? I was scared..I thought I was relapsing! But No, I was finally overcoming this stupid depression, and I felt like I had won...I had beat this monster! I was actually telling people I was happy!!
And ever since I havent gone back :) There are many MANY things that happened which made me get out of this...but thats for another post :)
Love you all! Dont forget, you are never alone! And that this WILL pass!
Smile! :)
Girl
I started having depression when I was 13 years old and it lasted for 4 years (heavily). It wasnt detected until about 2 years and a half through that. I didn't tell anyone. Not my parents and we had just moved continents (new language, new culture, new house, new school, new EVERYTHING), so I didnt have any friends or someone I could talk to. One day in October of 2009 I had to go to the doctor to check up...you know the regular. And he asked me how I was doing like regular people do, and I broke down right there in front of him, my parents, and a med student who was doing her practice there. Everyone got concerned, but I just wanted to be left alone. I got put in medication right away, and they made me go to the hospital for a full day at least one time. I was 16, but I was terrified of letting people know why I was feeling that way, because I knew my parents would eventually know. The change had been hard for everyone in my family and I didnt want them to worry any more than they had to.
As well I felt that I had no real reason to be depressed. So that made me feel worse! I had loving parents, was a good student! But I didnt have any friends...had lunch at school by myself many times...and came home crying most of my first year in this new country.
It wasnt until about early december of last year that I started feeling like this huuuge weight was being lifted off my shoulders...I starting having this weird feeling....it was.....happiness? Like WHAT is that!? I was scared..I thought I was relapsing! But No, I was finally overcoming this stupid depression, and I felt like I had won...I had beat this monster! I was actually telling people I was happy!!
And ever since I havent gone back :) There are many MANY things that happened which made me get out of this...but thats for another post :)
Love you all! Dont forget, you are never alone! And that this WILL pass!
Smile! :)
Girl
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Does this really work?
You might have asked yourself many times....does this (whatever the situation) really work? I want to talk right now about the coping strategies that many people just take for granted when going through a big trouble. There is a major MAJOR most important one! You NEED to tell someone....it's the first step in everything.....just like with good things that you need to tell someone, same thing applies here. Hopefully you choose the appropiate person, as there are many people who will pretend to care for about 5 mins and then forget that you even felt sad....and act as if nothing has happened. If this is what happened to you, dont lose courage! There's other people you can tell as long as you feel comfortable...There's no limit as to how many people you can tell.
Other coping strategies are closely related to what you used to like. If you are a sporty girl, you probably like outdoors, running, being active! If you know you are and you are struggling through depression right now...go for walks! Doesnt have to be long...you can walk your dog too....it's a great way to get you out of the house and get the exercise your body was used to.
If you are a quiet, shy girl, chances are you are good at drawing, singing, and love music. These are great hobbies! Make it a goal to draw a little bit every day, to sing your heart out for a couple of songs, to search for songs on the internet on your favourite band! Even if it's just 5-10 mins....do it everyday! It will be your own little personal coping strategy that you can call your own!
If you realized that you were a straight A student and now are in the C's and have a hard time getting B's.....you are probably really good at puzzles and writing....maybe playing an instrument, and like to challenge yourself more. But since you started feeling depressed you feel like you can't accomplish anything....well guess what! You dont HAVE to feel that way....go and play the piano, or your guitar that you put away for so long that you used to love...take out that journal that you havent written in ages out! Go online and look up your favourite puzzles and do them! There's also some on the daily newspapers....
These are just examples of three types of girls....all feeling the same way but all coping differently....It goes to show that everybody is going to get better a different way, but that DOES NOT mean that you won't get well! Trust me, It will!
Ladies! (and maybe a possible guy who would be reading this, if you are a guy, same thing applies!!)
Take care of yourselves and don't forget to smile today!
Love,
Girl
Other coping strategies are closely related to what you used to like. If you are a sporty girl, you probably like outdoors, running, being active! If you know you are and you are struggling through depression right now...go for walks! Doesnt have to be long...you can walk your dog too....it's a great way to get you out of the house and get the exercise your body was used to.
If you are a quiet, shy girl, chances are you are good at drawing, singing, and love music. These are great hobbies! Make it a goal to draw a little bit every day, to sing your heart out for a couple of songs, to search for songs on the internet on your favourite band! Even if it's just 5-10 mins....do it everyday! It will be your own little personal coping strategy that you can call your own!
If you realized that you were a straight A student and now are in the C's and have a hard time getting B's.....you are probably really good at puzzles and writing....maybe playing an instrument, and like to challenge yourself more. But since you started feeling depressed you feel like you can't accomplish anything....well guess what! You dont HAVE to feel that way....go and play the piano, or your guitar that you put away for so long that you used to love...take out that journal that you havent written in ages out! Go online and look up your favourite puzzles and do them! There's also some on the daily newspapers....
These are just examples of three types of girls....all feeling the same way but all coping differently....It goes to show that everybody is going to get better a different way, but that DOES NOT mean that you won't get well! Trust me, It will!
Ladies! (and maybe a possible guy who would be reading this, if you are a guy, same thing applies!!)
Take care of yourselves and don't forget to smile today!
Love,
Girl
Monday, February 14, 2011
Helping People
Today I just want to share what helping people means to me. I recently (about 3 days ago) created a yahoo account for the sole purpose of being able to answer yahoo answers. I have been diagnosed with depression, eating disorder and panick attacks. But thanks to God, I am doing much better now :) I learned A LOT over the past year, not only about myself but also about those people who called themselves "friends". The people whom I thought were going to be there for me werent and the ones who i thought wouldnt were. This is not to say that I had a lot of people caring, i didnt. In fact it was only one person outside of my family who lives between 6-8 hours who helped me through it all. I talk about her in another post, but I was pretty mad back then, so disregard that comment. She was great and without her help, I dont know if I would have been able to get out of this. This is why I created a yahoo answers account. I solely wanted to help people going through things that I went. Because it sucks. You NEED someone to be there for you.
You need someone who understands. Otherwise, they will try their best to help you, but it really doesnt help that much. This is not to say that I never got mad at this person who helped me. I did every so often, because I just believed she had better stuff to do with her time. But she stuck through it all (mostly). And i am very grateful for that. So I want to give other teenage girls the same opportunity. Many other girls feel like they dont have anyone who understands, and even though online, I feel like I can help. If this is how you feel, and you feel you have no one to talk to, email me, message me, contact me. My yahoo email is tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com I check it many times throughout the day. Chances are I'll check it at the most within an hour of you sending something.
Please take care!
And for all of you girls out there who feel depressed, SMILE! :) Even if you are alone right now. You are beautiful! Know that it will all pass and get better soon!
Love,
Girl :)
You need someone who understands. Otherwise, they will try their best to help you, but it really doesnt help that much. This is not to say that I never got mad at this person who helped me. I did every so often, because I just believed she had better stuff to do with her time. But she stuck through it all (mostly). And i am very grateful for that. So I want to give other teenage girls the same opportunity. Many other girls feel like they dont have anyone who understands, and even though online, I feel like I can help. If this is how you feel, and you feel you have no one to talk to, email me, message me, contact me. My yahoo email is tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com I check it many times throughout the day. Chances are I'll check it at the most within an hour of you sending something.
Please take care!
And for all of you girls out there who feel depressed, SMILE! :) Even if you are alone right now. You are beautiful! Know that it will all pass and get better soon!
Love,
Girl :)
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