In a year a lot changes...

So I have been recently looking back on my life in the past few years (even if I am still young :P) But I realized that in one year I have really changed. A year ago, I was very depressed, now I enjoy life. I enjoy the little things that make me happy. I have a wonderful family and a wonderful boyfriend to help me if something gets to me because even if I am a lot happier, depression, an eating disorder and anxiety are daily battles. And before I would let them control myself, but now I control them. And the biggest self-help has been me being able to ask for help when I need it.

You know what? It's ok to say: "Actually, I cant take on this or that. Or I really need to just relax for a day". Self-care is the best thing! If you are thinking: "Yeah, but you dont have the pressure to get good marks for school, or get into that great university you want to, or whatever it is"....actually, I do, I have to keep good marks to keep my scholarship for university. But you know what? What good is those grades or that university, if you are not there for it? Who will be honest with you if you are not honest with yourself first? Or say you want to help someone who is in a similar situation as you, how can you help someone if you are not healthy yourself?

Its a great self-analysis, which is why I can honestly say that I think I am fit to help. I have never been happier and healthier in my life. In fact, I can prove it! I went to my eating disorder doctor and he said next visit is my last visit! woohoo for me! I dont have to go there on a regular basis anymore! It feels great!! Like I'm finally finding the missing puzzle pieces of my life!!

If any of you feel like your life is about to crumble down from underneath you, please dont hesitate in contacting me, I would love to try and help you, or even if you just want to vent.

I am here for you.

You are not alone!

Take care.

You guys are all beautiful!!

Helping People

Today I just want to share what helping people means to me. I recently (about 3 days ago) created a yahoo account for the sole purpose of being able to answer yahoo answers. I have been diagnosed with depression, eating disorder and panick attacks. But thanks to God, I am doing much better now :) I learned A LOT over the past year, not only about myself but also about those people who called themselves "friends". The people whom I thought were going to be there for me werent and the ones who i thought wouldnt were. This is not to say that I had a lot of people caring, i didnt. In fact it was only one person outside of my family who lives between 6-8 hours who helped me through it all. I talk about her in another post, but I was pretty mad back then, so disregard that comment. She was great and without her help, I dont know if I would have been able to get out of this. This is why I created a yahoo answers account. I solely wanted to help people going through things that I went. Because it sucks. You NEED someone to be there for you.

You need someone who understands. Otherwise, they will try their best to help you, but it really doesnt help that much. This is not to say that I never got mad at this person who helped me. I did every so often, because I just believed she had better stuff to do with her time. But she stuck through it all (mostly). And i am very grateful for that. So I want to give other teenage girls the same opportunity. Many other girls feel like they dont have anyone who understands, and even though online, I feel like I can help. If this is how you feel, and you feel you have no one to talk to, email me, message me, contact me. My yahoo email is tweetie_girl20@yahoo.com I check it many times throughout the day. Chances are I'll check it at the most within an hour of you sending something.

Please take care!

And for all of you girls out there who feel depressed, SMILE! :) Even if you are alone right now. You are beautiful! Know that it will all pass and get better soon!

Love,

Girl :)