I was just listening to the song "The Lonely" by Christina Perri ( Whom I love!!!!) And it got me thinking of "those nights". When nothing is going right. When you feel like you cant take it anymore. The song is about a breakup, but many parts of the song can be applied to those feelings late at night. I specially enjoy the line" I'm the ghost of a girl that I want to be most. I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well." I guess thats two lines....but for me it symbolizes how you can usually look back on your life and realize that there were those moments were you truly felt happy. Now, you feel stuck in the present not being able to go back to that person you were. And honestly, it can drive you insane.
I used to feel like that and it was always bringing me down. Not allowing me to believe in myself or in any help I could get. I didnt think that being free was possible. I was wrong. It DOES get better. But as I've said before, it will be a bumpy ride. But nothing can get better unless you want to. So if you are struggling with sadness, make an EFFORT, tell yourself a million times that you will get past this, even if nothing has changed. This will allow you to be more open when you receive help. And it WILL help.
There is something about nighttime that triggers many bad emotions. I know, I experienced it too, just like you do. I still dont know what it is, but I think its related to the fact that as the night progresses you feel lonelier. It could be because all your friends start "leaving" either from msn, facebook, etc...and your family too. And you realize that all of the sudden everyone is asleep and you feel lonely. Feeling like you have no one to talk to. That's my opinion on why night is usually way tougher than the day.
I would like to specially thank Danielle in this post. You are a beautiful girl. Never be afraid of anything or anyone. You are strong! This will all pass soon! I know it will. Never forget that you are not alone. Ever.
I would also like to thank those people reading from Greece and India! Craziness!! Thank you!
I'll talk to you soon
Girl
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